Thursday, August 31, 2006

On going back to work

Recently it has become clear that my occasional volunteering at Spouse One's business has turned into a full time job. Generally it seems that I am happy about that, which rather surprises me. I get bored easily, and have had trouble in the past with jobs where I have learned all that interests me, and then become rather laisez faire about the whole endeavour.

Partly it is nice to see Spouse One more, and we seem to have complimentary skill sets which means that we work well together. Partly it's exciting to be learning again. I have missed that, and while I adore learning, I must admit to being rather unmotivated on my own. During my two year hiatus from the workforce I taught myself to cook, and to crochet, and any number of other crafty things, but I really never pushed myself. It's exciting to be faced with developing entirely new skills.

When making life choices, I find I am often faced with the guilt of not living up to my potential. Having been identified as 'profoundly gifted' as a child, there was a lot of talk, and still more expectation, that I would accomplish something truly extraordinary. Generally I don't find that I care particularly. I am far more interested in enjoying my life, and doing things that interest me. I don't want to get all caught up in needing to be the best at everything I attempt.

I wonder if this is a thing that atheists often find, that life has no purpose beyond one's self definition of such. Perhaps it's something faced only by the ex-religious? I wonder if all that enforced certainty has left me feeling somehow lost without an authority to tell me what to do, or at least one to rebel against.

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Bullshit!

Another confession: I adore Penn & Teller's Bullshit!

Adore it. Truly. There is something truly and wonderfully satisfying about watching funny people tear down superstitions, and ridiculous points of view.

I know it's not of the calibre of Dawkins' "The Root of All Evil". On the other hand it is much funnier, and has a lot more profanity.