Personal blather

K was here for the weekend.  It was so nice to have her here.  I had a hard time with it.  I don't handle sadness very well, and pain, and I've been walling myself off because it's hard being at a distance, and loving people who are all far away.  I have to remember to try to keep my heart open.  It's so hard.  Now I have a great big project to do, and then a bunch of housecleaning and crafts before I start teaching kindergarten monkeys next week.